Thursday, August 28, 2008

So True!!

Before I was a Mom :

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom :

I had never been puked on.

Pooped on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom :
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom :

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I.. couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom :
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom :

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every
10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Little Weekend Fun

We went to Little Cottonwood Canyon last weekend and it was so much fun. I haven't been there sense chelle and me were encountered by a mousse. We went with Jesse's friends from work and their kids. At first my kids were kind of scared to walk around, until they saw the lizard. They all went crazy and chased that poor little guy everywhere.

Jesse even had fun too. Andy and him went hiking around the waterfall. We had some BBQ, and all in all we all had fun. Even through the down pour of rain right before we left.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Payton's First Week Of School!!

So last week was Payton's first week of school, she was so excited. "Now I get to be just like Rae", she could hardly wait. That morning she got up early and got herself dressed and came into our room. It was 4:30 in the morning!! Needless to say she was REALLY excited.....How quickly that all changed......

Once we got there and she realized I wasn't going in with her, her attitude changed dramatically. "I don't want to go", "Mommy please don't leave me here". I finally got her to calm down and she went in. Everything was going great, til yesterday
She throw out all the stops, "What if you die on the way home I'll be left here forever", "I LOVE YOU", Please don't leave me". All the the while screaming at the top of her lungs. The principal comes out of the school and asks me if I will accompany her to her office. Payton still throwing a fit!! Mrs. Ward ( the principal) had taken it upon herself to bring a counselor into the room to try to calm her down. Oh no, that didn't work, she started to kick him. "Get away from me"
He looks and me and tells me to get up and leave, she will be fine. As I try to leave the room, Payton's crying "mommy don't leave me, don't you love me anymore?".......I couldn't leave, I turned around grabbed Payton from him and left, crying myself. I just couldn't leave her there like that.
Separation Anxiety Disorder is what they say she most likely has. We went and bought a book, The Kissing Hand By Audrey Penn. We read it last nigh and we are going to try the little secret that is in there and see if it works. Cross your fingers!!!!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Wishfull Thinking Here is a link to the home we are trying to get in Henderson.

Friday, August 1, 2008

The Meaning of Love!!

I just had to put what a wonderful husband I have. It amazes me how well he knows me. How he can tell when I am sad. Today when he came home from work he had a pink rose and some white chocolate. He is such a sweetie, he knows exactly how to cheer me up. He's the Best!!